still no sleep

It's 4:29 am. Yuck.

Michelle left for Philly on a jetplane yesterday, arriving safe and healthy, thankful for an uneventful and relatively unstressful journey. Many people prayed for her trip, and the Lord answered those prayers.

So I slept alone. And woke up at 3am alone. Thinking. It' like I'm 10 years old and it's Christmas in the morning. But no, I'm 26 and I've got a baby on the way and a big drive ahead of me, with just me and the pup up I-81. Thankfully the O'hanions, a pair of college friends, are letting us stop over on the way, so I needn't fear overly late nights driving through the Shanendoah snow. The blessings of friendship continue to amaze.

So at 3:30 am I realize that since my digicam just broke that I need to come up with a solution for Christmas pics. I grumble against my ancient Agfa 1mp camera, but I can't do without it either. Now that there's a kiddo on the way, I've got the perfect excuse for one of those little Sonys. Oh please 3HD, will there be a Xmas bonus this year? Anyway, the old one still takes pictures, but I can't get them off. So a USB smartmedia reader is on the way to Philly now. I know it's a cliche by now, but you just gotta love shopping online. Add a $10 rebate and it's nearly cheap as free.

It's still too early to start packing or cleaning the kitchen, so I should try to sleep now. But I can't. I still thrill at the prospect of telling my parents we're expecting a child. And I miss my little family so far away. I wonder if she's nibbling on a triscuit by her beside right now. It sounds so much like a bunny eating that I can't help but smile no matter how early. I wonder how she's sleeping without the Airsleep. I wonder how her body will react now that she's off the fibro medication (until the 3rd trimester). I dream about how much more beautiful she's going to look with the baby-on-board belly, and how I'm going to need to remind her of that at least 3 times a day. I can't wait to get her maternity clothes...I even went over the Xmas shopping budget yesterday (for the baby, of course), buying her some cozy and cute sweatpants, size XXL so she and the kid can grow into them. Hopefully they'll work out. And I still wonder how we're going to afford all this, trying to remind myself that the Lord will provide, as He always has, and He always will. Yet we must be diligent, wise, faithful.

OK time to try to sleep a bit before cleaning, loading up, working, and driving. Next stop Blacksburg, VA, then on to Philly tomorrow.